Just when I was roaming in my cousin's place this happened. Before telling what,let me just explain the set out there.It was his bedroom , himself and his bed and not to forget it was 11 pm. I heard sounds of his troubled voice. I thought he was on phone. I overheard what he said.
"I know we had problems when I was young, but now I love u so much, please don't do this to me, please come to me"were those 26 words that he uttered. With much eagerness I went to a position from which my eyes can see what he was up to.
I didnt find a phone, it was just himself and his bed and his 26 worded phrase.
His 26 worded phrase "I know we had problems when I was young,but now I love u so much,,please don't do this to me, please come to me". I was again a bit buzzed. I had been overhearing him for the past 5 mins and that 26 worded phrase was frequently coming out of his vocal gate.
He was just 2 feet away from me while he was doing all these.
This shot up my eagerness to know why he was doing this. I tic-taked a few steps to get near him.
I couldn't bear the pain in his voice.
While on my walk(2 feet) , I was thinking that I must know what the matter is and try to get him out of it. But before that my brain wanted to have a guess - ASSUMPTION PHASE.
Those 26 words might have referred a Girlfriend of his. Was my cousin ditched by her? Did he ditch her?
Anything might have happened. In this era of break-up parties my cousin must have attended one I supposed. In such a short walk(2 feet) of mine I was thinking what, why and who would have been that lucky girl to have had break up with him. But all these,as I told earlier, were just "assumption".Suspense was all over the air along with his 26 worded phrase.
"You are done with it" said myself to my brain for that assumption. "Now lets know what the matter really is"said myself to it. My brain obeyed and we both continued our walk nearing him(2 feet).
The moment came, I touched my cousin's hand. He was like he didnt feel my touch and he was still uttering that 26 worded phrase."I know we had problems when I was young,but now I love u so much,,please don't do this to me, please come to me". I then just shook him to get him back to normal. And thanks to my shake that it really got him to ask me this - "hey anna epo inga vantha?". A few mins back said I, and asked him about what he was really doing. He asked me the same in reply "what was I doing?"
I was shocked.Was he out of his senses?
I then gave him a little flashback of what had happened to get him back on course.I was eager.
I asked him why he had been doing all this.
Tears rolled down his cheeks.He was weeping with his eyes blood red.
My eagerness didn't want to see all these sentimental scenes and it wanted to directly get into the matter.So I asked him what had happened?
Then, there were coil winddings, and we both looked up towards the ceiling and the FLASHBACK begun.
"dai ennachu theriyuma?"said he.(rest in englishu)
"She had been near me right from my childhood,but I didn't like her. It all began when I was in school. I was attentive during one of my 4th std maths class when she first got me into trouble. I was doing addition using my little fingers then. Suddenly she came near me and started her romance. It was trouble then.And she continued it for the whole maths hour. It was very unfortunate that my MATHS TEACHER saw what she was doing to me.She got frustrated and made me kneel down on my knees.
A 4th std student would need no more bigger reasons to develop hatred and thus I began to hate her a lot.
But she never left me alone. She was constantly nagging me. She ate away my time.She never let me do what I loved to in my leisure time. I didn't like her even a bit. During the day time she was real trouble.
And the worst thing is that , my parents wanted me to be with her. They shouted at me for not doing so.
Things made me to hate her to the core.
But as days passed and when I had more important things to do,I started to love her. I found the thing that was so beautiful in her. I just didn't realise this when i was young. I now loved her a lot. I would often start romancing her . And this happened very often. Now in my college I found better ways to have secret romance with her without getting caught by my prof. I missed buses because of her, I was late to college, I missed my fav TV program etc etc etc because of her.
But i felt relaxed and freshened up whenever I had spent time with her.
I was so ridiculed with me on how I had missed her during my young age.
But things changed. My parents didnt like me spending all my time with her.They yelled at me not to do so.They were the ones who encouraged me.
Amidst all these, my love for her grew rapidly. There were days in which I was romancing her for the full 24hrs. She ate up my time as before but I loved it . I loved her too much
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But in the space of time,matters changed. She started to stay away from me. She began to hate me.
I yearned for her.I wanted her back in my life and for most of my time.
But when I tried to do so, I was shocked to know that she didn't want me. She dumped me.
I tried all ways in this world to get back to her but I couldn't. I felt depressed and I was wearing out.
I was affected so much that i became feable and my immune system let me down.
I didn't know the reason for all this. We had been together for a long time. I didn't want to be facing this. Reason, reason, reason..Why has this happened? Villan,villan ,villan, Who is he who got us seperated? I wanted to know something. I lost myself due to the lack of her.
And here I am talking to her. This is my one last chance to persuade her and get her back .Thus I am pleading her by uttering this "I know we had problems when I was young,but now I love u so much,,please don't do this to me, please come to me"." finished my cousin.
Flashback end.
I heard it. I heard it all . But then I didn't get what I was expecting. More than him I was very eager to know the reason .
"dai ennada achu? theliva sollu. yaar ipdi pana?antha she yaaru?" asked I.
This was his reply and yes this was it
" antha she- MY SLEEP ,
villan - INSOMNIA."
To many who are badly missing their sleep in this late night working era.
"Wikipedia says Sleep is sensory suspension, but sleep is really a blissful sense."
- Penaakkaran
